Crazy!... I'm not crazy!

why is life,
synonymous with pain?
why try to survive,
when there is no gain?
why does love,
create such hate?
why can't the dove,
collect a mate?
why believe
in a thorny cross,
when nothing can relieve
the pain and loss?
why fall in love?
why carry on?
why push and shove,
when all is destined to be gone?
i fell for you.
i hate you now.
you said it was true.
i've got to move on, but how?